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Dec 7, 2004
I have approximately 8 more hours before i turn 20!!! ish...i'm actually freakin out...i'm not gonna be a teen soon...hahahha!!!Happy birthday to me....happy b'day to me...happy b'day to myself.......happy b'day to me.....yea....kesian eh...makin tak siuman...every yr 4 my b'day i realise i dun really noe wat i want...all i noe is dis yr i want sth simple...money. hahahaha no la...i just want peace. been so busy lately...wif so many things and so many problems...wat do i want...i want a nice soft bed with fresh,soft, thick and lush quilt....in a deserted spot(so i can slp naked...hahahah!)then...a lil of nice cool breeze and a blanket of stars to slp under...and i can a nice...long rest...and when i awake, the sunlight falls softly on my face...oh ya preferably the place shld be sumwhere in the maldives...hehehe...but then again...wat is dis life anyway...maybe somehow...i'll wake up from dis nitemare called life where i have to struggle 2 find solutions and way out...then i'll just face to see the person i love and hu loves me and say..."i had the most terrible dream but it's ok nw.."
Posted at 04:02 pm by super_nova8
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Nov 18, 2004
It's been such a long time...since i last updated.. hahahaha! well let's see nw...everything's been easygoing fer me nw... not so grand...not so belittle either...i'm just contented...my problems are always there...the 'not-so-nice' side of reality is always ever present...but somehow i manage to stay quite clear headed...things btwn me and 'the boy' in ma life nw is just gr8...cldn't ask for more when he's 'everything' at this moment...this moment...sth i hope will blossom into many more moments in our lives...someone once said we live in a world of perceptions not in a world of realities...what we perceive to be true may sometimes be false...what we perceive to be what we're made of may sometimes not be...what we are...i've loved and lost but i'm glad i didn't lose myself...and as for 'the boy'...he's in love with 'the girl'..hahaha how corny can i get? let's just say i feel more sure and more in control of my emotons then i have ever been..
Posted at 01:01 pm by super_nova8
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Oct 19, 2004
It has been such a long time since i last did an miss me? hahaha...let's see...my granny moved to my uncle's...kind of disagreed...but no choice got to accept...not met him for 5 days...i'm praying it won't be a mth b4 i c him again!!! his b'day is comin...dis thurs...uhmmm still scratchin my head on what 2 get fer him...or whther i'll meet him to give the present haiz...i honestly miss him...but he's so busy...and i'm so busy...the whole freakin world is BUSY!! ok let's not get carried away nw, hehehe...got a few job interviews apart frm my own job...apparently they still need me coz there's a shortage of staff...haiz...sop tired of being so unsure...let's see...i fell 2 days ago at citylink..HAHAHA!!!!such an embarrasment! hahaha...was working...delivering sth...then my trolley got stuck and ya well u noe the rest...hahahaa...so many bruises...LOL...i'm goin fer a job interview today...hope i make it thru...
Posted at 01:35 pm by super_nova8
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Oct 8, 2004
I wonder as i sit by the window...
Here alone and smiling...
that silly smile of mine...
wondering...
thinking...
intoxicated wif all the things that's happenin arnd me...
i wonder if i'm alone...
am i?
r we?
i wish i cld photogragh the smirk on my face nw...
it's like all the gd memories r flashin in front of me...
this feelin...invincible...
can't even touch it...
but it's there...
i've already begun to miss my grandma.....
dun want her to go...
she's goin 2 my uncle's place on sat...
maybe if i have time...i'll upload her pic...
Posted at 02:32 pm by super_nova8
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Oct 7, 2004
Life as it is...
Everything and everyone arnd me...
movin so fast...
time is fleeting for em...
but somehow for me...
time is standin still...
long enough for me to appreciate the serenity...
long enough for me to make my decisions...
everything is beautiful...nothin is chaotic...
my mind is focusin again...
my heart...at ease again...
Posted at 04:26 pm by super_nova8
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Oct 6, 2004
I've been gettin dis weird feelings...sth more then just ur normal average feelings...i dun understand em...hav a feeling it's uncannily related to the man in the mansion and sarah...though he's so far away i just noe certain things...certain feelings dat r unexplainable...i noe he feels em too...but i can't explain it..it's like i can lose every single communication ever created by Man but i can never cut off dis weird connection dat goes beyond physicialities...no matter wat i do...it's dat gut wrenchin feelin dat won't let go...why? why me? why him? wat's goin on? it's like i noe wat he's thinkin...wat he feels but i'm not physically present in his life...i cry sumtimes w/o a reason...it's freakin me out...really...sumhow sarah and dat man in da mansion is still together...no matter how hard i try...they won't let go..or is it me who won't let go...but i'm sure i let go...so sure...yet dis feelin...i can't fig it out...dis feelin dat goes beyond any i have ever felt...what is it?
Posted at 07:02 pm by super_nova8
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Oct 4, 2004
He likes to be by himself a lot, but don't let that scare you off. He has a very caring soul and he will always love you from the bottom of his heart! And if your friends start telling you hes not your type, ignore them or laugh in their faces. You are the key to unlock that heart of his...hehehe i'm the key? LOL...
Posted at 02:01 pm by super_nova8
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Feelin clueless today...really clueless...wearin RED shoes today hahahaha....how clueless is dat...was really sick yest...puked my guts out...migraine's still not gone completely...haiz...well it's monday again...and i'm still clueless abt the rest of the week whether i still have to come back to school...haiz..had gr8 time with my beau on sat....at first i was angry at him but no matter how hard i tried i guess i cldn't stay mad at him...played pool...had a heart to heart conversation...felt so relieved after the talk...he just held me and we talked and talked fer hours...then he was up to his usual..."lets take a pic together' so we took some more pics...he promised me to send the pics so he'd better...saw Lan's video clip of the breadboarderz, it's really...AWESOME....really nice pics...even the candid ones...the songs accompannyin is...well perfect...it was just...lovely...like all the things in a life nw...lovely...
Posted at 01:22 pm by super_nova8
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Oct 2, 2004
It's the weekends again...life goes on as per normal...i'm writing a song...dunnoe wat to call it yet but...it's just sth i thot of on the spot...if it can't be a song...it'll be a poem then...either way...i think anything goes...today also happens to be someone long forgotten's b'day...if given a chance i would tell that someone...happy b'day and i'm sorry but i cannot be there for your b'day and many more b'days to come...but i'm sure someone else will...my only prayer for u is to be happy in whatever you do...and forgive me for not being able to be by ur side...never look back at a time gone and past...be safe wherever u r...
so much fer my past...let's get back to realistic present...gonna go out wif my frens then maybe i'll meet my dear after...kinda of miss him...maybe we'll eat dinner and play pool or just sit and talk abt nothing at all...hahhaha...nothing is sometimes...everything...and wif that i leave behind the thought of the day...
Posted at 01:13 pm by super_nova8
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Sep 30, 2004
"And i dun wanna fall to pieces...
just wanna sit and stare at u...
and i dun wanna talk abt it..
And i dun want no conversation...
just wanna cry in front of u...
and i dun wanna talk abt it
coz I'M IN LOVE WIF U..."
such a beautiful day...a lil' cloudy but...lovely...
will be rushin fer my proj...dis is the 2nd last day of SIP and wan's recording everything...interesting...will be busy today...got alot of work to finish..but i can do it...btwn hope nana gets better...her flu sounds bad...ltr i make soup fer ya if i can k? hope everything goes smotthly today...
Posted at 09:26 am by super_nova8
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